Well, I fear a break down. I fear it so I stave it off by avoiding the negative and depressing things, but I hold that thought in the back of my mind that I will break. Fear is there. Fear I will just drop to my knees and just lose it. I kind of prepare myself for this, but I want to be strong for my daughter, husband and family.
I Will Never Give Up! NEVER
It's okay to be angry, outraged, upset, sad, and depressed -- these are normal emotions. It's not your job to stay happy and upbeat for other people. It's your job to face whatever comes at you the best you can and to see it for what it is. You have an illness. It can be treated. It will be hard. But you will come out the other side. Just remember that all emotions are equal -- don't let one dominate the others.
ReplyDeleteI totally get where you are coming from and I am that person -- the glass HAS to always be 1/2 full otherwise you will go crazy! I totally believe that we are never handed anything in life that we can't handle. This is happening to you for a reason, you may not see it today or tomorrow or even in 5 years, but you will at some point have that "aha" moment and it will all make sense ! In the mean time have a good cry in the Shower--- it works wonders and no else knows about it that way!! I am praying for you and I have a big hug wrapped around you , I hope you feel it! xx
ReplyDeleteI had my moments of losing my job, not having any money, so many things ran through my mind. I cried I think 3 times in 2 years. Crying doesn't help me if anything I really wanted to break something. I'm angry and I want to fight. Every one is different on how they handle their pain. Just so you know your also grieving, not from someone's death but from what is being taken away from you at this very moment. I didn't believe in God until last August when I was ready to give up. Then something miraculous happened that changed my thoughts and I believe now with all my heart. Prayers work and will get them going for you.
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